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When I initially had this experience during a ‘guided’ meditation earlier this week, I was not going to share it, but now I feel that maybe I should.

I cast a circle with the intention of connecting to Source – that was all. I didn’t have any other intentions except that I wanted to connect with The Infinite Creative Source that sustains all life.

I went about preparing the sacred space by laying out my instruments (Wand/ Patchouli incense in the East quadrant (Air); Athame/green taper candle in the North quadrant (Fire); Chalice and cauldron in the West quadrant (Water); Copper Pentacle/vase with snowdrops in it in the South (Earth) and my dragon in the middle of the ‘circle’ to represent Spirit/Me.

I started the meditation by doing a powerful breathing exercise (breathe in for 4 counts, hold for 4 counts, breathe out for 4 counts and hold for 4 counts) I did 32 repetitions of this breathing meditation until I was completely relaxed and focused.
I saw myself sitting under a tree – a huge/ancient tree with awesome, gnarly roots going down deep into the ground and majestic, strong branches going up high into the sky.

Roots 1

I was leaning/resting against the tree and then felt/imagined my own roots going down into the earth and tapping into the roots of the Tree – joining with them. I felt myself being absorbed into the tree and becoming One with it. I asked the tree who she is and she said that she is the Tree of Life. I looked out of the ‘eyes’ of the tree and saw that I was not alone. There were more trees (about 8 including me) and we were in a circle, holding hands and dancing. The dancing turned into a swirling, spiralling dance and we travelled through time and space.

dancing-trees 2

Artist Igor Zenin

When I opened my eyes, I saw that we (the 8 trees) were on a hill/mound and that the spiral, swirling smoke was now coming from a fire in the centre of the mound that we were encircling. The experience was incredibly erotic and sexually charged (?)
I was looking out of the tree and into the fire. I then stepped out of the tree and was dressed in a beautiful white tunic with a garland of white roses on my head. I felt as if I was embodying the Goddess and was wondering if this was Beltane or something – I wasn’t sure – just hugely aroused!? I was wondering if I would be joined by an ‘outside’ Divine Masculine in the form of Pan/Horned God and that we may join in the Heiros Gamos/Sacred Marriage during this meditation.

I waited a while, but it was just me, the other trees and the fire. The fire seemed to symbolise purity, cleansing, illumination and transformation. As I was pondering all of this the words ‘I am a Virgin and belong to no man’ came to me. I understand ‘virgin’ to mean complete and whole in oneself and not needing another to complete or fulfil or satisfy. I also realised that within me is the perfect balance of Sacred Feminine and Divine Masculine and that I didn’t need a ‘partner’ to act out the Sacred/Divine Union of the two as I was embodying them both within me anyway!

“Ancient moon priestesses were called virgins. ‘Virgin’ meant not married, not belonging to a man – a woman who was ‘one-in-herself’. The very word derives from a Latin root meaning strength, force, skill; and was later applied to men: virile. Ishtar, Diana, Astarte, Isis were all called virgin, which did not refer to sexual chastity, but sexual independence. And all great culture heroes of the past…, mythic or historic, were said to be born of virgin mothers: Marduk, Gilgamesh, Buddha, Osiris, Dionysus, Genghis Khan, Jesus – they were all affirmed as sons of the Great Mother, of the Original One, their worldly power deriving from her. When the Hebrews used the word, and in the original Aramaic, it meant ‘maiden’ or ‘young woman’, with no connotations to sexual chastity. But later Christian translators could not conceive of the ‘Virgin Mary’ as a woman of independent sexuality, needless to say; they distorted the meaning into sexually pure, chaste, never touched. When Joan of Arc, with her witch coven associations, was called La Pucelle – ‘the Maiden,’ ‘the Virgin’ – the word retained some of its original pagan sense of a strong and independent woman. The Moon Goddess was worshipped in orgiastic rites, being the divinity of matriarchal women free to take as many lovers as they choose. Women could ‘surrender’ themselves to the Goddess by making love to a stranger in her temple.”
Monica Sjoo and Barbara Mor, The Great Cosmic Mother – Rediscovering the Religion of the Earth


Mayday Goddess by Angie Lotham

After a while, I saw myself going back to the tree and becoming one with it again. I then retraced my steps until I was sitting back leaning against the tree where I had started the ‘guided’ meditation. I call this a guided meditation in the sense that I feel I was being guided/led by my intuition or connection to the Divine. It was spontaneous and unfolded as I went along, rather than planned.  The whole experience was erotic, empowering and orgasmic 😉

Peace, Love & Light





Each element – Air, Fire, Water & Earth has an OUTWARD EXPRESSION & INWARD EXPRESSION.

The outward expression of an element is the visible, active expression of unseen, subtle elemental forces.

The inward expression is the non-visible, receptive, internal process and manifestation of the element’s subtle forces.



Air – Outward Expression = power to know.

Knowing represents the acquisition of rational understanding of the world around us. The areas of knowledge, communication, education, learning, thinking, and speaking are all ruled by air.

Imbalance = we may appear flighty, talkative, overly analytical, hyper cognitive, exclusively rational, and only able to experience the world through mental understanding.

Air – Inward Expression = power to wonder.

Wondering has to do with the relinquishment of knowledge. Wondering is about unlearning your life and your relationships to everything and everyone. Wondering is experiencing the wisdom that emerges when you release opinions and judgments about life. What is there to know?

Life is fluid and movable. Fixing your opinion, knowing a fact, and then sticking to that knowledge only creates rigidity and powerlessness. The power to wonder allows you to discover truth as it reveals itself in each moment without resorting to fixing perceptions, cognitive understanding, or mental anticipation. It’s learning to tap into your intuition, your 6th sense, your ‘gut’ feeling about something.

Imbalance = we may appear inattentive, spacey, sleepy, easily distracted, dense and a bit ‘doff’ or dull-witted.




Fire – Outward expression = the power to will.

“Willing” means actualizing one’s personal desire. The active expression of fire centers on movement, action, passion, directness, attentiveness, strength, and assertion.

Imbalance = we may appear hostile, angry, rageful, aggressive, destructive, hyper sexual, nervous, over-assertive, impatient, demanding, back biting, competitive, or vengeful, and may result in only being able to relate to the world through action and achievement.

Fire – Inward Expression = the power to surrender.

Surrendering is about aligning your personal will with the universal or the divine will. It is an attitude of not striving: it is about not insisting on the energies of your life flowing in some preconceived way. When you surrender, you live in harmony with the flow of life energy; you live in accord with whatever circumstance arises. Surrendering comes from a deep understanding that life energy does not need to flow in one way or another, since that energy is what you are already.

Surrendering is also about letting go. It may mean letting go of physical stress or tension, or letting go of emotional tension. It may mean releasing your grip, your insistence on getting your own way. It may mean leaving a job that pays well but makes you miserable. It may mean releasing your hold on a relationship that is no longer functional.

Imbalance = we may appear lazy, depressed, dependent, inactive, idle, indirect, and perhaps dangerously passive or unable to act.




Water – Outward expression = the power to dare.

In its active, outward expression water brings forth a power of fearlessness. Water does not recognize formal boundaries. The ocean does not distinguish one drop of water from the next, nor does it discriminate. It accepts all forms of water. Water’s power to dare encourages you to go beyond human constructed, socially accepted and institutionalized boundaries. If you dare, then just as naturally as water, you glide across that artificial line drawn in the sand by culture, gender, ethnicity, family, or by any other arbitrarily assigned conventions.

The area of dreams, visions, empathy, compassion, understanding, cycles, and lunar mysteries are all ruled by water in this active expression.

Imbalance = we may appear weepy, sad, depressed, fixed on the past, brooding, secretive, emotionally reactive, and inappropriately empathetic.

Water – Inward expression = the power to Accept.

In its receptive expression, water governs the power to accept. Since waters’ natural expression is a free flow in any direction, the complementary, “reversed” aspect of water focuses more on the container of water than the water itself. The heart of ‘accepting’ is defining and honouring the boundaries. It is the power of the cup, the chalice, the cauldron that gives shape to water.

In practical terms, accepting is about grounding yourself in the circumstances of your body, your environment, family, friends, work, life, etc. It is fully knowing where you are right now and determining how to get to where you’d like to go. There is power in acknowledging the whole truth of your life, the pleasant and the unpleasant. How honestly can you assess your advantages and limitations? Although discomfort may be involved in such a prospect, accepting is a golden doorway of opportunity. It invites you to take effective action in your life that can lead to significant change.

Imbalance = we may appear rigid, hyper-alert, self-deprecating, demanding of boundaries, needy of high structure and order, or only able to relate to what can be defined.




 Earth – Outward expression = the power to be silent.

The power to be silent is the earth’s outwardly expressed, dynamic energy. The earth is, after all, a silent presence. Silence is an energy of stillness and rest. Through this energy the body, mind and spirit find a sense of opening, broadening, and deepening. The stillness of silence also represents the void. This void is, as the yogis of India called it, Shunyata, the original emptiness of all things. The energy of emptiness is also one of potential; the void is eternally ready to manifest as new forms – trees, birds, streets, people, in a sense then, emptiness is also fullness. The usually receptive energy of stillness is also the active energy of readiness, and of unlimited potential (how awesome is that?)

In its active expression, the element of earth rules material gain, wealth, prosperity, riches, work, service, strength, fortitude, honesty, practicality, pleasure, comfort, music, and art. Earthy people enjoy the simple pleasures of life such as good food, good sex and a nice place to live. They are grounded and practical in their approach to what some people consider to be complex issues.

Imbalance = we may appear rigid, stubborn, pessimistic, conventional, cruel, worrisome, inactive, possessive, stupid, slothful, greedy, or covetous.

Earth – Inward expression = the power to Resonate.

The element of earth governs the power to resonate in its inward, more passive expression. The power to resonate sounds vibrant and active, but resonance is the energy the EMERGES FROM SILENCE. Resonance represents the ‘interconnectedness’ of all reality. It is an energy that widens your perspective to understand that there is no division between you and anything else. The receptive energy of earth connects you to the undulating pulse of the universe, the spiritual vibrations that underlie all of existence. Sometimes, in moments of silence, we can naturally connect to this energy and we feel the pulse of life throbbing all around us and can experience the divine as it manifests in the world. When you tap into resonance, the darkness of earth renders itself luminous, weightless and effortless. When you strongly align with this power to resonate, spontaneity guides your actions; the energies of life itself guide you.

Imbalance = we may appear light headed, detached, disoriented, and out of touch with ones’ surroundings / reality.



Thank you to Cathrine Langwagen of cassiopeiaart for the beautiful and inspiring Elements artwork

Love & Light



Believing in an Infinite Creative Force that sustains all life is incredibly freeing.  It means that you don’t have to believe in any one religion or be part of any particular religious group, because you are free to drink from the wisdom, truth and beauty that can be found in ALL of them.

You don’t have to feel bound to or restricted by a set of theological beliefs or religious structures that have been interpreted and taught in a way that doesn’t make sense to you or that you are not comfortable with.


You are directly connected to the Source that created you and that same source flows through you.  Realising that this Life-force is within you is incredibly empowering and means that you are in continual UNION with your Creator.  It means that you are free to see the Creatrix in all of Her Creation.  You are free to embrace the idea of Panentheism (God in ALL / ALL in God) wholeheartedly.  You only have to look around you to see this incredible, Infinite Creative Force flowing in and through all that She has birthed and sustains.


You are free to express yourself and your creativity however you choose.  You can use your intuitive gifts and wise woman power without fear of being labelled a witch or sorceress.  You can consult Tarot cards and the Stars and see the beauty and wisdom in Sacred Geometry and Numerology without fear of being ostracized by your religious community.  You can believe in both magic and miracles because you know that the two can go together.


You can call yourself a child of the Earth Mother and immerse yourself in the amazing richness and depth of Shamanic, Pagan and Earth Based practices without fear of being shunned or excommunicated.

Because you know that you have been created and birthed in unconditional love by the Universe Herself, the fear of death holds no power over you.  You will not be controlled or manipulated by teachings on hell, devils and demons.


You believe that there are ‘spiritual truths ’at work in the Universe no matter what your religious beliefs are (or lack thereof) or how you interpret them.  These spiritual truths remain true regardless.  You can choose to work with them to co-create a world/life that is full of love, awe, and wonder.  You can work with the higher energy and frequency of the Universe and believe that your dreams and desires will be manifest.  You can tune into the natural rhythm of the Universe and choose to go with the flow and work in harmony with Nature.  You can follow the cycles and seasons and moon times and honour the natural cycles of your body.


You are completely free to embrace your sensuality and sexuality and revel in who you are.  You can delight in the truth that sexuality and spirituality go hand in hand and that you can experience an even greater connection to the Divine Feminine through the practice of Sacred Sex.  Life is good.

Love & Light