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When I initially had this experience during a ‘guided’ meditation earlier this week, I was not going to share it, but now I feel that maybe I should.

I cast a circle with the intention of connecting to Source – that was all. I didn’t have any other intentions except that I wanted to connect with The Infinite Creative Source that sustains all life.

I went about preparing the sacred space by laying out my instruments (Wand/ Patchouli incense in the East quadrant (Air); Athame/green taper candle in the North quadrant (Fire); Chalice and cauldron in the West quadrant (Water); Copper Pentacle/vase with snowdrops in it in the South (Earth) and my dragon in the middle of the ‘circle’ to represent Spirit/Me.

I started the meditation by doing a powerful breathing exercise (breathe in for 4 counts, hold for 4 counts, breathe out for 4 counts and hold for 4 counts) I did 32 repetitions of this breathing meditation until I was completely relaxed and focused.
I saw myself sitting under a tree – a huge/ancient tree with awesome, gnarly roots going down deep into the ground and majestic, strong branches going up high into the sky.

Roots 1

I was leaning/resting against the tree and then felt/imagined my own roots going down into the earth and tapping into the roots of the Tree – joining with them. I felt myself being absorbed into the tree and becoming One with it. I asked the tree who she is and she said that she is the Tree of Life. I looked out of the ‘eyes’ of the tree and saw that I was not alone. There were more trees (about 8 including me) and we were in a circle, holding hands and dancing. The dancing turned into a swirling, spiralling dance and we travelled through time and space.

dancing-trees 2

Artist Igor Zenin

When I opened my eyes, I saw that we (the 8 trees) were on a hill/mound and that the spiral, swirling smoke was now coming from a fire in the centre of the mound that we were encircling. The experience was incredibly erotic and sexually charged (?)
I was looking out of the tree and into the fire. I then stepped out of the tree and was dressed in a beautiful white tunic with a garland of white roses on my head. I felt as if I was embodying the Goddess and was wondering if this was Beltane or something – I wasn’t sure – just hugely aroused!? I was wondering if I would be joined by an ‘outside’ Divine Masculine in the form of Pan/Horned God and that we may join in the Heiros Gamos/Sacred Marriage during this meditation.

I waited a while, but it was just me, the other trees and the fire. The fire seemed to symbolise purity, cleansing, illumination and transformation. As I was pondering all of this the words ‘I am a Virgin and belong to no man’ came to me. I understand ‘virgin’ to mean complete and whole in oneself and not needing another to complete or fulfil or satisfy. I also realised that within me is the perfect balance of Sacred Feminine and Divine Masculine and that I didn’t need a ‘partner’ to act out the Sacred/Divine Union of the two as I was embodying them both within me anyway!

“Ancient moon priestesses were called virgins. ‘Virgin’ meant not married, not belonging to a man – a woman who was ‘one-in-herself’. The very word derives from a Latin root meaning strength, force, skill; and was later applied to men: virile. Ishtar, Diana, Astarte, Isis were all called virgin, which did not refer to sexual chastity, but sexual independence. And all great culture heroes of the past…, mythic or historic, were said to be born of virgin mothers: Marduk, Gilgamesh, Buddha, Osiris, Dionysus, Genghis Khan, Jesus – they were all affirmed as sons of the Great Mother, of the Original One, their worldly power deriving from her. When the Hebrews used the word, and in the original Aramaic, it meant ‘maiden’ or ‘young woman’, with no connotations to sexual chastity. But later Christian translators could not conceive of the ‘Virgin Mary’ as a woman of independent sexuality, needless to say; they distorted the meaning into sexually pure, chaste, never touched. When Joan of Arc, with her witch coven associations, was called La Pucelle – ‘the Maiden,’ ‘the Virgin’ – the word retained some of its original pagan sense of a strong and independent woman. The Moon Goddess was worshipped in orgiastic rites, being the divinity of matriarchal women free to take as many lovers as they choose. Women could ‘surrender’ themselves to the Goddess by making love to a stranger in her temple.”
Monica Sjoo and Barbara Mor, The Great Cosmic Mother – Rediscovering the Religion of the Earth


Mayday Goddess by Angie Lotham

After a while, I saw myself going back to the tree and becoming one with it again. I then retraced my steps until I was sitting back leaning against the tree where I had started the ‘guided’ meditation. I call this a guided meditation in the sense that I feel I was being guided/led by my intuition or connection to the Divine. It was spontaneous and unfolded as I went along, rather than planned.  The whole experience was erotic, empowering and orgasmic 😉

Peace, Love & Light




I had a vision where I saw centuries of lies and oppression just starting to disintegrate and evaporate before my eyes. I saw shackles and chains falling away as if they were made of spiders’ webs.

We have been lied to for far too long – (our religion is the only religion, you have to be part of ‘our’ system/group in order to really belong, those people are evil/bad) any system that uses fear and/or control or greed for that matter isn’t worth your time or energy. These structures are based on duality (Good and Evil – in some traditions this duality is referred to as the Tree of the knowledge of good and evil)

We are realizing that we don’t need to get caught up in the ‘games’, the ‘structures’, and the ‘hierarchies’, that try and keep us blind-folded and in bondage; whether they are religious systems, political structures or any other kind of organization or belief system that makes us feel like we have to ‘climb ladders’ and ‘jump through hoops’ in order to be more Spiritual, more free, or more whatever.

Being ‘good’ and trying to do ‘good’ can be as much of a trap and keep us oppressed and oppressive. Trying to be ‘good’ keeps us from facing our shadow and keeps us from truly embracing freedom because we are trying so hard to be good and perfect.

If we don’t support these systems, they won’t be able to stand on their own. They need us to keep them ‘going’.
Unfortunately a lot of these systems and structures are ‘inside’ us. They are so entrenched in us that we aren’t even aware of them… They are negative thoughts and patterns of behavior that keep us fearful, oppressed and worried. They keep us trapped and judging and critical of others that don’t fit into our ‘boxes’

Now for the exciting part: once we wake up to the fact that we have all of this going on inside us (this dualistic mind-set) we can decide if we want to keep on living and behaving like this or we can choose to break free and wake up to a new way of being – a new way of living life (some traditions refer to this as the Tree of Life)

I believe that there are many people waking up to a new reality, a new way of being. We are starting to see ourselves and each other in a new light. We are becoming more and more aware that we really are all One – we are beginning to embrace the Divine Feminine in ourselves, one another and through Nature. My Breath is your Breath; my Spirit is your Spirit. I see you, I feel you, and I need you.

Instead of duality, we can embrace unity.
When we are united, we no longer feel the need to judge, compare and criticize each other because we realize that we are all one and the same. We all come from the same source – The Infinite Creative Force that gives life to all phenomena is in all of us – ‘I am another you’.

Love & Light