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When I initially had this experience during a ‘guided’ meditation earlier this week, I was not going to share it, but now I feel that maybe I should.

I cast a circle with the intention of connecting to Source – that was all. I didn’t have any other intentions except that I wanted to connect with The Infinite Creative Source that sustains all life.

I went about preparing the sacred space by laying out my instruments (Wand/ Patchouli incense in the East quadrant (Air); Athame/green taper candle in the North quadrant (Fire); Chalice and cauldron in the West quadrant (Water); Copper Pentacle/vase with snowdrops in it in the South (Earth) and my dragon in the middle of the ‘circle’ to represent Spirit/Me.

I started the meditation by doing a powerful breathing exercise (breathe in for 4 counts, hold for 4 counts, breathe out for 4 counts and hold for 4 counts) I did 32 repetitions of this breathing meditation until I was completely relaxed and focused.
I saw myself sitting under a tree – a huge/ancient tree with awesome, gnarly roots going down deep into the ground and majestic, strong branches going up high into the sky.

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I was leaning/resting against the tree and then felt/imagined my own roots going down into the earth and tapping into the roots of the Tree – joining with them. I felt myself being absorbed into the tree and becoming One with it. I asked the tree who she is and she said that she is the Tree of Life. I looked out of the ‘eyes’ of the tree and saw that I was not alone. There were more trees (about 8 including me) and we were in a circle, holding hands and dancing. The dancing turned into a swirling, spiralling dance and we travelled through time and space.

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Artist Igor Zenin

When I opened my eyes, I saw that we (the 8 trees) were on a hill/mound and that the spiral, swirling smoke was now coming from a fire in the centre of the mound that we were encircling. The experience was incredibly erotic and sexually charged (?)
I was looking out of the tree and into the fire. I then stepped out of the tree and was dressed in a beautiful white tunic with a garland of white roses on my head. I felt as if I was embodying the Goddess and was wondering if this was Beltane or something – I wasn’t sure – just hugely aroused!? I was wondering if I would be joined by an ‘outside’ Divine Masculine in the form of Pan/Horned God and that we may join in the Heiros Gamos/Sacred Marriage during this meditation.

I waited a while, but it was just me, the other trees and the fire. The fire seemed to symbolise purity, cleansing, illumination and transformation. As I was pondering all of this the words ‘I am a Virgin and belong to no man’ came to me. I understand ‘virgin’ to mean complete and whole in oneself and not needing another to complete or fulfil or satisfy. I also realised that within me is the perfect balance of Sacred Feminine and Divine Masculine and that I didn’t need a ‘partner’ to act out the Sacred/Divine Union of the two as I was embodying them both within me anyway!

“Ancient moon priestesses were called virgins. ‘Virgin’ meant not married, not belonging to a man – a woman who was ‘one-in-herself’. The very word derives from a Latin root meaning strength, force, skill; and was later applied to men: virile. Ishtar, Diana, Astarte, Isis were all called virgin, which did not refer to sexual chastity, but sexual independence. And all great culture heroes of the past…, mythic or historic, were said to be born of virgin mothers: Marduk, Gilgamesh, Buddha, Osiris, Dionysus, Genghis Khan, Jesus – they were all affirmed as sons of the Great Mother, of the Original One, their worldly power deriving from her. When the Hebrews used the word, and in the original Aramaic, it meant ‘maiden’ or ‘young woman’, with no connotations to sexual chastity. But later Christian translators could not conceive of the ‘Virgin Mary’ as a woman of independent sexuality, needless to say; they distorted the meaning into sexually pure, chaste, never touched. When Joan of Arc, with her witch coven associations, was called La Pucelle – ‘the Maiden,’ ‘the Virgin’ – the word retained some of its original pagan sense of a strong and independent woman. The Moon Goddess was worshipped in orgiastic rites, being the divinity of matriarchal women free to take as many lovers as they choose. Women could ‘surrender’ themselves to the Goddess by making love to a stranger in her temple.”
Monica Sjoo and Barbara Mor, The Great Cosmic Mother – Rediscovering the Religion of the Earth


Mayday Goddess by Angie Lotham

After a while, I saw myself going back to the tree and becoming one with it again. I then retraced my steps until I was sitting back leaning against the tree where I had started the ‘guided’ meditation. I call this a guided meditation in the sense that I feel I was being guided/led by my intuition or connection to the Divine. It was spontaneous and unfolded as I went along, rather than planned.  The whole experience was erotic, empowering and orgasmic 😉

Peace, Love & Light




Getting in touch with your Sacred Feminine Sexuality / Goddess Sexuality can be wonderfully liberating and empowering. When a woman connects to her Kundalini Energy / Sacred Sexual Energy she will find that it is incredibly healing and life changing. The two areas that I want to explore in more detail are GIVING as well as RECEIVING pleasure.

Goddess power


Women are natural givers – we look after, nurture, care for others, etc. and so, when we awaken to or discover our awesome Kundalini energy and feel a new level of sexual freedom and empowerment, it is not surprising that we want to GIVE! We are more easily able to ‘tap into’ our inner ‘Sex Goddess’ selves who want to entice, entrance, seduce and captivate our lover.  We focus all our energy and attention on our partner and imagine ourselves as the Ultimate Temple Priestess who is able to take their lover to that incredible place of sexual union and unity that transcends this physical plane. We embody the High Priestess of Sacred Sex who is here to give our lover the most awesome experience of their lives. When we embody this role, all our focus and attention is on our lover. It is all about GIVING.


I find it fascinating that when we are in this ‘giving’ aspect of sacred sexuality, we are in control; we are in the driving seat, as it were. All our focus and attention is on our partner’s pleasure rather than on our own pleasure. The other interesting point is that we are actually tapping into our ‘divine masculine energy’ when we focus on GIVING in this context. Before I go on, I would like to mention that I think it is hugely important that individuals get in touch with both their divine masculine as well as sacred feminine sides. We need both Yin and Yang energy to be in perfect balance. Generally speaking, masculine energy is dominant, strong, and active, as well as in control, whereas feminine energy is about being open, surrendering and receptive.



As great as it is to ‘give’, I believe that there is an even deeper level that you can delve into when you open yourself up to the art of ‘receiving’. I am not talking about the type of passive receiving where you lie back and open up to your partner so that they can receive instant satisfaction and gratification. No, I am talking about deliberate, delicious, delectable receiving where your lover’s attention is 100% focused on YOU RECEIVING PLEASURE.


Embracing your Inner Goddess and allowing yourself to be ‘worshipped’ and ‘adored’ by your lover is a whole new experience altogether. In this receiving aspect of Goddess Sexuality / Sacred Feminine Sexuality, you open yourself up to receiving unadulterated, gratuitous, pleasure. It is all about you having the undivided attention of your lover as he/she explores every part of you. This sacred space of receiving is a safe place where you are able to surrender your heart and bare your soul to your partner. This is a place where you want a lover who is unselfish and who also understands that you are embodying the Goddess and you have invited them into your ‘sacred temple’ to focus all their attention and energy on your pleasure.

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One of the awesome things about being a woman is that we are multi-orgasmic. It is really important to know and understand how your body works and what it responds to; so that you can teach/guide your lover in bringing you pleasure – at least initially. One of the most powerful sexual experiences your partner can have is seeing your body respond to his/her touch. There is nothing more satisfying than having complete power over your partner’s body and seeing how your fingers and tongue can send ripples of ecstatic pleasure through your lover’s body.


I often wonder if the 50 Shades of Grey trilogy was a best-seller because the focus was all on ‘her’ pleasure. I think women often feel guilty if they aren’t reciprocating and almost feel like they need permission to just receive. Great sex starts with great communication. If you and your partner are able to talk about your needs and desires openly, it will open up the doorway to transcendental sexual discoveries and experiences. Make time to explore both sides of sexual pleasure – GIVING & RECEIVING. Decide beforehand (if necessary) which ‘energy’ you are going to tap into – the more masculine, dominant, powerful role of the ‘giver’ or the more feminine, receptive, open and surrendered role of allowing yourself to receive sexual pleasure. Both are important, both are necessary and both offer new and exciting experiences. It’s just difficult to try and do both at the same time.


If you are used to trying to both give and receive at the same time, why not try something new? So often, you are so busy focusing on what you are doing to your partner’s body that you forget to enjoy the focus your own body is receiving. Instead of both trying to GIVE at the same time, or even RECEIVE at the same time – why not both focus on one of you RECEIVING what your lover desires to GIVE?

You are a Goddess of Sacred Sex and sensual pleasure, allow yourself to remember what that feels like.